Friday, April 15, 2011
Confession: I began my walk with Christ without knowing I was walking with him. I was praying and praying to him to heal my family when I was 12 years old, and He used the people in my past memories to structure my new ones. It’s funny how he allows us to be used in certain ways. I’m thankful that my 2nd grade teacher had invited us to her church when I was 6, because when I asked my father to take me to church, we took her invitation; even if it was 6 grades later.
The decisions we make in life are so important because they shape our future. We get lucky that our mistakes don’t always corrupt our existence, but that can only happen if we learn from them. Every single aspect of our life is a teachable moment, a learning moment, an experiencing moment. When I was in the 8th grade, I began watching Joyce Meyers every morning while getting ready for school. Her choice to speak the word of God and encouragement found my ears, all because of the decisions we make in our life. What if she had chosen a different path in life at a different time, allowing her past demons, transgressions, or pain to re-infect her continuously? And perhaps, I had decided to listen to MTV or VH1 while getting dressed instead of her ministry, where would I be? Maybe my walk would not be so defined with God, maybe I would still be a newborn in Christ, and maybe my outlook on spirituality and designing the perfect destiny for me would not be so clear. The decisions we make even while we are younger shape, form, and rejuvenate parts of our lives, knowingly and unknowingly. It may seem unfair because of our innocence, our pureness, and the fact that our steps are currently placed in the hands of adults that haven’t quite figured out their own walk.
I want to encourage you to pay attention in life. Each step you make differs from the last and will differ from the next one you make. Although, it may seem as you are walking around in circles, making the same decisions, it’s not true. We hold our destinies in our hands, and this world is more profound then we give it credit. There is so much more to our lives then we ever experience, and that is because we allow the creation and manifestations of others, become our own. My life is mine and mine alone, it belongs to no one else but me. How often do we stop and think that this is my life, mine! How incredible is that? How has the pessimistic nature seeped into our minds that at times, we wish for it to be over, have something new, or despise it? We have a responsibility to ourselves and whatever responsibility you feel that you have, it’s yours to figure out; but that’s just it, figure it out.
Ask yourself what is my purpose, and don’t be afraid of the answer. Remember, I am huge on not interrupting yourself, but instead giving you time to speak inwardly. It may cause for you to step out of an indolent lifestyle, it may make you challenge your weakness which initiates fears that we may not want to face, but know that you are stronger than you probably give yourself credit for. Know that those moments of doubt, frustration, and aggravation can be controlled by controlling your mind, your thoughts, and your actions. When you control your mind, you are in control of your destiny, because your thoughts become different, which allow for your actions to become different; your entire outlook on life becomes something of anew. Live above the definition you have defined for yourself, because you will be surprised when you finally figure out that the sky limit really isn’t that far. Let’s shoot for the galaxies, you and I.
Confession: All I want is the world ... to see its true beauty in every capacity, to make my moments last through laughter, joyful tears, and experiences that outweigh each passing one ...
I don't know ... I've been sitting on this line ... all I want is the world for a few days. I wrote the poem at the bottom, but I may make a part two. It lingers in my mind, and the statement itself does not contain a selfishness quality; it goes deeper than that. I hope you enjoy.
I hardly ever write in rhythm style so, this is something a little different for me. I'm a free thought open style type of writer. :o) Just a warning.
All I want is the world, is that too much to ask?
Experience life to its fullest, and all that it has.
All I want is the world, to hold pieces of it in my hand
Learning to fall in love, in whatever capacity I can.
All I want is the world, to feel happiness and forget the pain.
Memorizing even the smallest detail, for there is so much more to gain
All I want is the world, with you inside my walls.
For me to understand the concept, of what it really means to fall.
All I want is the world, to look into your eyes.
To lose myself inside of you, every blink offering an elaborate
or perhaps subtle surprise.
All I want is the world, to breathe in the heavens
and taste the flavors of the moon.
Standing still to watch the good parts, because Lord knows,
its over too soon.
All I want is the world, to hold your hand along the way.
To watch our souls become the best of friends, and to know, together,
we'll face the day.
All I want is the world, to carry new secrets,
shared only between us two.
Promising the nevers, making good on the always
pinkie swears, special shakes, to seal them or perhaps, renew.
All I want is the world, but only with you … is that too much to ask?
Monday, April 4, 2011
I keep telling myself, one step at a time. I'm sorry, I have to apologize for my behavior lately. I have been completely slipping on informing you all of my progress. So, last week, I was able to work out four times. I know I said I was going to post daily on what it is that I am doing, but I did not have the time. I will do better this week, promise *:).
Last week wrap up quickly: Monday (is posted), tuesday-wednesday took those days off, thursday ran four miles and walked a mile, friday did a zumba class, saturday did a step aerobics class and then ran a mile and walked three and a half with a friend, and saturday walked two miles with the hubby and dogs. This concludes my wrap up of the week.
My weight hasn't moved at all last month, but that is okay. I am already at my target weight for my height and I will post a chart below or above, I'm 5-8. It can be a bit difficult, but it is only temporary and I know that. I can feel my body getting better and tighter, my skin has cleared up tremendously, and I am doing great. So, I am going to keep it up.
As far as the month of April, I am planning on doing a ten miler. The competition that I want to join is right around the corner, so hopefully 10 pounds drops off (but I am doing this the natural healthy way) so, I don't know if my body will react that fast. It may. Usually after a month and a half you will see drastic results, so I am really excited.
Today, I was going to go to a yoga class but I decided to update you all; so, I am going to miss it, and that is okay, because I will do one here. However, I am going to make it to step, and I am going to do a spinning class afterwards.
Tomorrow I am hitting the treadmill and I am going to do 7 miles. That is my goal. Wednesday, if my legs are feeling up to it, I will do a yoga and step, and then on Thursday I will crush the gym again with a 5 mile run, to complete my workout for the week with a Friday Zumba class. Saturday, I may do another step aerobics and yoga class because it was light this weekend, and walk with my husband on Sunday :o) That concludes my predictions for the week, and I plan on staying with it.
Where is everyone else at?
Friday, April 1, 2011
Confession: I've never felt hesitant to speak about defeat. It's in those defeating moments where I expose myself to vulnerability and exchange my weakness for strength.
I'm emotional, I'm a bit stubborn and sometimes too sentimental to let things go (and that applies to multiple arenas). Oh, and I can be an enemy, an enemy to myself.
I may be all of those things; nevertheless, I am also a successor. I am an over-comer and a determinate force that refines herself when faced with failure, because that is one thing I will NEVER become. The adage never say never has been optimistically promoted throughout time, becoming one of the most famous repetitive idioms of all time. One thing you should remember, as I often remind myself, there are always exceptions to the rules, and this happens to be one of them.
Who am I? I am a lot of things. Different aspects of me are lurking out of the shadows, revealing characteristics of myself on a daily occurrence; but what I have learned about who I am is, above all else, I am resilient.
I will always be the bit of bright green that springs from the crack of the earth, fighting to make room for who she is becoming.